Last chance to Dance

Your eyes so blue,

The feeling coming from your heart now so true,

Our trust now will I sue,

So that we may both get to us what is due.

Our hearts in pursuit of one another,

But still hidden behind cover,

Wanting so badly for things to be clear,

Trapped in a constant state of longing and fear.

Determined not to make the same mistakes twice,

Because the lessons we learned cost us such a heavy price,

We can now give ourselves a second chance,

And maybe one day learn once again how to dance.

I am Darkness

I am darkness.

I have been swallowed by the abyss.

You told me you loved me but it was a lie.

I trusted in your words when I was called a fool.

I defended you when they called you cruel.

Now it continues to all crash around me.

I have become something I once despised.

The funny part is, you don’t even act surprised.

I have cried till there are no more tears.

I have come face to face with all my greatest fears.

I have stared God and the devil in the face.

I say to both of them, give me your worst.

For nothing could drag me farther into the darkness.

The darkness is my friend and comforter.

The place where I can almost forget her.

The place where it almost doesn’t hurt anymore.

The place that I was made for.

I embrace it and it embraces me.

I embrace it and become free.

Free of the chains and pains.

Free to watch the blood flow from my heart.

Free to reach in and rip everything apart.

Rip it apart until I become numb.

Numb to the scar, the pain, the betrayel of love.

Now you see, the darkness fits me like a glove.

My name........is Darkness....

Beautiful Song

Sleeping but not dreaming,dreaming but not asleep, silently screaming and gasping for air.

Living but not alive, dead but not gone, stumbling in the dark, not knowing why or how, trying to find a way out, drowning in red, brown, clear and green happiness.

Drifting hours and days, the sun has lost it’s shine, the moon it’s pull.

Fire raging within and without, refining this broken and raw clay, the dreams of the past haunting, the greatest nightmares now reality.

As the phoenix rises from the ashes of death, it becomes beautiful and strong. Life is a sad but sometimes beautiful song.

Once More

Be still thine heart,

For thy pain is too great,

Too great to be spoken,

Too great to be heard,

Too great to burden another.

You did once overflow with love,

Love so strong and beautiful,

Joy indescribable,

Overwhelming passion,

Dreams so full of hope.

Now love and joy reside here no more,

Chains of hurt and betrayal bind you,

Anger and darkness now your masters,

Sorrow and disappointment your companions,

Peace and happiness but fading memories.

Once more do you dare feel?

Once more do you dare try?

Once more do you dare dream?

Once more do you dare trust?

Once more you shall surely die...

I thought not

Black, dark skies roll in over the valley, rain begins to pour, lightning and thunder crashes all around. I find myself chained between two jagged rocks, with my hands and feet bleeding as the rusted chains dig farther into my skin, grinding to the bone. My heart placed on a stone altar before me, having been sacrificed and rejected, it now rots and becomes black and cold, undesirable to all who witness the horror it has become. Now as the water rises, just as I am beginning to drown, I struggle to breathe and barely getting the words out, I ask, will you be the one to save me?...I thought not..

dark and cloudy, stumbling in the rain, bleed some more and drown out all the pain, scarlet skies and ruby rivers,lightning crashes and sends me shivers, looking forward, holding back,can you see my armor crack?

Ashes to Ashes

As the rain drops fall on my face,

Your memory I still can't seem to erase,

You are the one who taught me how to love,

The one who taught me to rise above,

Above and beyond my own limitations,

Above and beyond my own accusations,

You taught me to have no fears,

To keep dreaming through the tears,

And as the tears stain my face and sting my eyes,

I can't help but think of the lies,

Your lies,

My lies,

The lies of the flies surrounding my rotting heart,

My heart that has been utterly torn apart,

But as i walk down this lonely road in the rain,

I will embrace and rise above the pain,

Just as the mighty phoenix rises from the ashes of his own death,

So shall I rise up and once more take life's breath.

Watch me...as I soar....